Medusa from the word for guardian, the daughter
of ocean gods, the name for the time in a jellyfish's life
when it swims in the ocean. Maybe you think about
jellyfish floating, too, a milky moon jelly taken
where currents say it has to go, but jellyfish swim
and are good at it. Before this phase they're polyps,
stuck to a rock or coastal reef, unable to move.
Polyp from the Frenchman who thought they looked
like an octopus and named them in Greek: many feet.
Or polyp for the flesh hiding in any choice of your labyrinth
body. When my uncle started really dying his doctors
had already named lung cancer, liver: ones he'd earned
though chemo kept them in check. But polyps patiently wait
their turn for years. He never would have known about them if not
for the PET scan checking the known rot: like a job he worked,
opening a wall to run a ceiling fan's wire and finding a black mold inside.
He learned plumbing and electrical work from his father,
maybe inherited the cancer too, and worked for a man
who paid him in cigarettes and beer. Not happy
though he'd laugh: the houseshaker boom of a drunk.
Now I write his diagnosis on my intake forms. Close to 40,
I'm too young for the colonoscopy, but insurance covers it
when you're high risk. I remind myself while drinking
lemon Gatorade and Miralax, removing my jewelry,
tying the neck of the hospital gown: all the ways the body
hides. Did you know the girl Medusa didn't have another name
before she was changed? Almost I said she changed, like
she chose to do it, but I was wrong about that
and the name, too. She was always what she was.
But wrong is a happy word: the doctor didn't find a single thing.

Pamela Manasco lives and writes in Madison, Alabama. Her poetry has been published or will soon appear in Rattle, SWWIM, Rust + Moth, The Midwest Quarterly, and others. She’s on Twitter and Instagram @pamelamanasco, and her website is pamelamanasco.com.
